Have you ever taken a LEAP OF FAITH? Murphy describes it as putting all you hold dear into a zip-loc, sealing it shut and handing it over to God.
In Indiana, I quickly adjusted into our family routine. I did okay for the first few weeks and then I realized I knew NO ONE. I could shop at Walmart and not see one familiar face. I think I discovered this in the middle of week two and when we left over two hundred weeks later, I was still battling with being un-known.
When I anticipated building friendships in a new place, I knew it wouldn't be easy. I knew it wouldn't happen quickly. I also knew that if and when it did happen it would never replace my friendships in Kentucky. I knew the Lord would bless my EFFORTS (even if they weren't recepicated) and I knew I wouldn't survive without it.
Effort.
I did put a lot of effort into building friends in that new place. It was one of the toughest things I've ever done in my life. I took for granted how valuable being known - having 'history' with someone can be. I took so many people, places, and things for granted. I never anticipated the heartache, the pain, the sheer agony of being 'un-known.' I had invested so much emotionally in being known.
Since that time, here are a couple of things I've learned...
- to ask 'Jesus, what do you want me to do?'
- to live intentionally
- to refuse to be pushed around by circumstances
- to remain stalwart
- to stop whining when everything isn't perfect. How many more times can I ask Jesus, 'how much more can I endure?'
We often take our 'connectedness' for granted.
ReplyDeleteI like the zip-loc baggie analogy. It's almost surgical procedure.