brokenness is scary

Brokenness, I have come to understand, involves a mental decision of letting go.  And for me, it's a decision made in the quiet simple moments of life.

The Holy Spirit whispers and my mind races. 

In the same way, Elijah, in 1 Kings 19, is struggling.  He thinks he's the only man of God left doing the right things.  He has just defeated {in a mighty way} the prophets of Baal and the Spirit whispers...

The Lord said,
“Go out and stand on the mountain in the presence of the Lord, for the Lord is about to pass by.” Then a great and powerful wind tore the mountains apart and shattered the rocks before the Lord, but the Lord was not in the wind. After the wind there was an earthquake, but the Lord was not in the earthquake.  After the earthquake came a fire, but the Lord was not in the fire.

He's not in the windstorm.
He's not in the earthquake.
After the earthquake there is a fire, but He's not in the fire.

Look at verse 12 of 1 Kings 19 -

And after the fire came a gentle whisper.  When Elijah heard it, he pulled his cloak over his face...

That's where I am most days.
Searching for God in the big, loud, noisy world I live in.  I'm hoping He'll knock me over the head with an earthquake to teach me.  But He's waiting...in the quiet moments.  Waiting for me to turn my focus and attention on Him and so He whispers.

And this is what He says...

Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you.  So we say with confidence,

The Lord is my helper; I will not be afraid.  What can mere mortals do to me?

It's at that moment, when the Lord has your attention, when you'll decide whether or not you'll choose brokenness.  His desired result is the surrender of my will - into His hands. 

What will you decide to do?